hurt by a friend

i was sexually assaulted (i don’t know if it classes as rape or not) by a close friend. he invited me round as we had planned to go out that night, he ploughed me with alcohol and made me feel like i couldnt say no when he offered. whilst we were walking to the venue he tried to kiss me, i was so intoxicated and unaware that i let him and he then proceeded to talk for a long time about how i shouldn’t have “friend zoned” him and that i “kind of owe him” because he comforted me when i had cried about a family issue earlier that night. i then blanked out and only remember flashes of what happened. i woke up the next morning feeling extremely scared of this former friend as i trusted him when i was most vulnerable. we are still on the same course and i still have panic attacks sometimes if i know i am going to have to see him.