Charlie

I think I’ve repressed most of the memories that involve a man dehumanizing me, belittling me, objectifying me… but some memories are imprinted and will not be ignored. Because of those experiences, I have no sexual desire, I am afraid of being alone, I look over my shoulder and I often expect the worse out of people because of what I have been put through. I wasn’t always like this… and although I do not consider myself a victim, or a survivor (I hate seeing it that way), I do wish I could feel light, and heal. I hate how I don’t know what’s wrong or right anymore because it all seems so normal and common.