Kasia
Some men think I am not worthy of normal treatment. They do not shake hands with women. Even when I stretch my arm, they ignore it, they just greet other men. It annoys me so much. They also use those silly names that are supposed to be polite phrases I guess, like “kobietko” (it is “you tiny woman” in Polish). Some men think I need their approval. They whistle or comment my appearance out loud when I come by. Sometimes they do not say a word, but they look at me in a way that makes me feel uncomfortable. It is not a compliment for me. It is an insult. Some men don’t respect my autonomy. Once a guy at a rock festival grabbed my boobs from behind and squished them. He was drunk and didn’t want to stop when I pushed his hands away. I felt disgusted. Some men don’t respect my will. One time someone I knew for a long time and trusted stripped me from my pants though I said a clear “no” and forced me to passive oral sex. I felt raped but could not protest any more because I was so surprised and affraid. It still hounts me.