My eldest brother sexually abused me from the age of 13 to 21, which was the last time he raped me. At 21 I medically withdrew from college for suicidal ideation and a mental breakdown. Shortly after, I began to see a therapist and a clinical psychologist which informed me that I suffered from a handful of mental illnesses that had gone untreated for years. I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder, the highest leading cause for this in adults is a past history of child sexual abuse, and incest even more so. Not only had my body, trust, self-esteem, and identity been torn away from me, but also, in some ways, my sanity. Finally working up the courage to confront my brother, I asked him why he had done it. He shrugged his shoulders and said, “I wanted my dick played with.” Dumbfounded, I couldn’t believe that the traumatizing events, for him, had been insignificant. I still attend therapy to undo the negative effects and visit a psychiatrist monthly.