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At university I got in a relationship with a guy who from the get go was a red flag but I was a fixer at 18, after coming out of one abusive relationship I walked myself into another 8 months later. For a whole year over time he gradually got more and more controlling as to what I looked like or did. Granted I never let him dictate what I wore but he still made comments. Throughout the relationship I was coerced into having sex once I stoped showing an interest as much due to his sickening behaviour when drinking and on drugs. It wasn’t until years later and therapy that I realised what had happened to me. It made sense why a girl told me he raped her and he denied it. It ruined my relationships after for a while all because he thought I owed him because he was a man. He would humiliate me like my dad did to my mum in public and it was something I quickly have learned is not acceptable in a relationship. I picked my dad in a partner because I was shown abuse and sexist behaviour growing up.
