I was 18 and at my first house party with some friends and others i met there. i was a little nervous and the pressure to drink didnt help. anyway, we all fell asleep on the couches and i was woken up by the guy next to me kissing me. i kinda kissed back at first because i was half-asleep and didnt know what was happening. the next day i was shaken up and told my friends but all they really said was it was fine and did i kiss him back. it made and still makes me feel embarrassed and like i was making a fuss over nothing but it had and still has a big effect on me. id never kissed anyone before. i had no education or language for what happened and i never talked about it for ages. only now ive grown and taught myself, do i feel angry and wish i had the confidence for that back then.
