Today a classmate (who I generally consider a friend) and I were talking during free work time in class. I don’t remember exactly how it happened, but somehow the conversation got around to pregnancy. He mentioned he felt sorry for me; he was glad he wouldn’t have to go through giving birth and everything. I said “Who says I want kids?” I’m 15. I don’t need to know yet.
He said “Unless your husband tranquilizes you and rapes you.”
I didn’t know what to say. I wanted to slap him, but I was just stunned. I couldn’t believe he said that. I still can’t believe he said that. Just all matter-of-fact. So I said “That’s not funny, (his name). “OK.” “No, I mean that’s really not acceptable.” He just kind of shrugged and turned around. He didn’t even apologize. I don’t know what to do. It’s not even that big a deal. It’s not like he threatened me. But 3 hours later, I still felt like I’d been punched in the gut and couldn’t quite catch my breath.
Later I tried to tell a friend. I couldn’t tell her what he’d said. I knew she’d support me, but I couldn’t bring myself to say the words. He’s in almost all my classes. It took me nearly half an hour to write this. I cried as I did. I just can’t believe it.