Anon, 15

I was on a school trip to the beaches of Newquay, Uk and the football world cup was on at this time. England seemed to be doing pretty well everyone was getting a bit excited by this

first night, we were sent on an assignment that was a bit like a hunt to find our bearings around the area. when some drunk men came out from watching the match (we had won) and came up to the group of us about 5 girls and 5 boys and asked “are any of you ladies down to fuck” I was very taken back by this but my best friend without missing a beat turned to him, with a sassy tone in her voice, responded “underage, honey”

this caught the attention of the crowd coming out of the pub and the other group from our class and everyone seemed so happy she actually bucked up to him. as we were too afraid to even though he didn’t hold any real threat to us as he were even struggling to walk straight.

despite this and knowing I could outrun all of them with no problem, I still found my self afraid that someday I might be alone in a similar situation with a more sober man and freeze

my real problem is I know that if I was to get raped my mental health would get really bad and I am 80% sure I will attempt suicide after something like that. especially as I am a lesbian who generally finds the idea of just kissing a guy repulsive