So, I have an account on a website that I’ve been on since I was 14 (I’m now almost 20). Once I got comfortable with my subs, I started to do face reveals but stopped after a couple of selfies as I always got lewd comments, despite the photos only ever showing my face and me always being fully clothed in them. I was added to two group chats on this app about two weeks ago and since day one, I’ve had issues with them. Stuff like multiple members constantly “joking” about raping me and calling me “whore” and “slut” because I didn’t go along with their “jokes”. Now, I met this guy on the chats who actually seemed decent and he messaged he, so we started talking. We exchanged selfies but then I told him i had a bf so it didn’t go further. However, yesterday we had a major disagreement over LGBT culture and I ended up blocking him. I woke up this morning to a message from another guy on the chat, saying that this guy had sent my selfie to both chats. This made me have a panic attack. I have paranoia and mild anxiety and I told him that the reason why I didn’t post the selfie on the chats was because I was afraid that someone would reverse google search it, would find my actual social medias and would ruin my life (I know, insane, but I wouldn’t put it past some of the guys on the chats). To make matters worse, one of the guys who I’ve had an issue with from day one actually posted my selfie on his account, with my username and asked people to call me a stupid whore. Naturally I freaked out about this and so messaged the guy who sent the photo, asking why he’d done it. He genuinely didn’t see the issue with posting it, especially as it wasn’t a nude, and didn’t see why it was a completely out of proportion response for someone disagreeing with him. He made up bullshit excuses like because he didn’t know I had mental issues and therefore didn’t know that I’d have a panic attack that he wasn’t to blame and other shit like that. I ended up blocking him again because he admitted that his apology was only out of courtesy and it felt like hitting my head against a brick wall trying to get him to understand why what he did was wrong and why I was upset. There is nothing more I can do at this point but I’m just so upset, especially with the guy who posted the selfie on his account. Given that I didn’t want my face to be shown, I feel like that picture was just as private as my nudes would have been and so I feel completely betrayed. Not only do I feel like this wouldn’t have happened if I was a man, but it’s also opened me up to even more lewd comments about rape and how I’m “such a slut. Just not a great way to start my morning. God, I hate guys.
