I had two instances happen. One when I was 11 and the other when I was 17. At 11, a close family friend who was 21 coerced and groomed me, only leading to him raping me. I was scared, frozen, alone.
At 17 I had drank too much at a party. I passed out with a close friend of mine. She left in the middle of the night and I awoke to a man that I called a friend on top of me raping me. His friends were in the room and they didn’t do anything.
I was afraid to share this due to people coming after me for drinking, ruining his chances at a university, or not “fighting off” the 21 year old.
I carry this with me to this day.