malena
I was dating this guy for about a month, and we always came to my house and made out. But I made it really clear since the begging what my boundaries where. he kept on asking if he could finger me, and I kept on saying no and pushing him away as well as distracting him with soft kisses. he kept on asking persistently and reaching Down my pants. after a while I got tired and just letted him go down my pants, even though I told him to stop while he was at it and that he was hurting me, he kept on going. he said it was ‘to please me’. and I felt like it was part of my duty as his girlfriend, but I was extremely uncomfortable. after that he made me ‘return the favour’ and he made me put my hands down his pants. it has been 4 months since this happened, and at first it didn’t hit me that I had been through sexual assault, I thought there could have been something more I could have done. and to this day I still feel partly guilty and responsible even though I know I’m not. and I really want to move on. but I have lost all my friends because of this, people now call me a slut, since he went on first and told his side of the story. no one believes me except two of my closest friends, and even my mom said that it was my fault and could have done something more, that I was leading him on and couldn’t leave him hanging. I don’t know if you will get to read this, but I saw the video on wannatalkaboutit and it just made me feel so much better and like I wasnt alone. because I then also think, people have gone through rape with random strangers, and I try to undervalue what actually happened to me. and I’m sorry if I wrote too much but I had to vent. its just that I’m tired of feeling like an object and very time someone touches me I flinch, I can’t get into a new relationship because I feel ike they won’t respect my boundaries and I am just tired of the world being this way. I think the work you are doing is amazing. thank you so much for letting me share one of my stories on your platform! you are letting us feel heard and valid <3 im 14 btw