Over a year ago now I was dating this boy. I was 14 and it was my first proper relationship or what I thought one of those was. One night at a party we were getting more intimate. I wasn’t sure what he wanted so I let him take off my bra and touch me where he wanted. This was my first time doing anything like this so I didn’t really know what to do and I actually didn’t feel that uncomfortable. A few days later we were saying goodbye after school outside the gates. It was full of students and teachers on duty and he grabbed my bum as I turned around to walk away. I felt shocked and uncomfortable but I ignored it. He did it multiple times after that including in a crowded school corridor and in front of all my friends. Ever since then I haven’t been able to get close with any other boy. I get anxious and nauseas and overly self conscious. I feel like the only asset I have that they would be interested in is my body. I’m angry that he did that to me and how it’s affected me.