Ana

It was my first day at uni. I was at a party for the first years of my course, and I was very drunk. Back home (which is a different country), I had never experienced being scared while drunk, because I knew where I was and I knew who I was with. Here I had nobody. So towards the end of the night, I was sitting with this girl, let’s call her X and a guy, Y. I had talked to X a bit beforehand, so I knew her a bit. I had never spoken to Y. So I was sitting with them, and then suddenly I just feel his hand on my back and my butt. I just dismissed it because he was cute, but then he started rubbing the side of my thigh and pushing me against him.
I tried to get up but fell over because I was so drunk. He caught me and suggested that we take a walk. I don’t know why I said yes, but I did. He took me to the edge of the garden and stood so close to me. I couldn’t see anything. I’m quite short, so he was towering over me, and I couldn’t even see the other people in the garden. He then grabbed me and kissed me. I was in shock, for I don’t know how long, but when I came back to my senses, he was still kissing me. I don’t know what came over me, but I just pushed him away and ran. I grabbed the first girl I found, took her to the bathroom, and just broke down. He is in my class, so I see him nearly every day. Since then, I have seen many doctors, and I have been given medication for insomnia and anxiety. I don’t feel safe in class anymore. I feel traumatized almost every day.