I was raped by a man on my birthday, at my birthday party, in my own bed. It was my first sexual experience. I developed severe anxiety, a terrible self image, and a very difficult relationship with my own sexuality. Nearly 5 years later I am still dealing with its affects in my relationship with my current partner. I am so angry at what was stolen from me on that night. I am angry because every birthday of mine since then is totally overshadowed by what happened. I can no longer have birthday parties for fear of something bad happening. I am shocked by how much it is still affecting me, and how little support I have received from anyone in the 5 years since.
